Beauty. July 29, 2008

I ended up jogging with David around the Rollins Savannah the other day. God, my legs HURT! I absolutely hate jogging. But it was actually fun with him, at least, until the part where I got a blister from wearing thin socks.

So…I ended up getting paid yesterday, the full amount, and I was very happy. What’s more, the Cancun fund is now $312.72. Woohoo! After tutoring, I went to Jewel to drop off some movies and ended up going inside. Lately I have been trying out new make-up and hairstyles.

I have never been one for fashion, but David is getting me into it. He grew up surrounded entirely by vain women, and was surprised when he found out I really don’t take that much time in the morning to groom myself or pick out clothes, or even really think about a hairstyle. “You should love yourself, take care of yourself,” he says. I took his advice to heart after a while.

I bought eyeshadow, bobby pins and hair ties, and on the spur of the moment decided to make a trip to the library to get a book recommended to me by a fellow Alphawoman called “Color Me Beautiful.” Not only did I end up finding the book, but I found a more up-to-date beauty bible and a LOT of how-to-start-a-business guides. I came home very happy.

By the way…eyeslipsface.com.

Accomplished. July 27, 2008

So if you’re into the whole raw fooding thing, I HIGHLY suggest you check out Ani’s Raw Food Kitchen. Lots of great pictures for us visual-learning folks, not to mention a feel-good, easy as 1-2-3 atmosphere about it!

Today I ate mock tuna salad and “fettuccine alfredo,” which is sliced zucchini topped with a blend-mix of seeds and garlic. Oh, and for breakfast I had organic grapenuts with sesame milk. It tasted really delicious, and I have begun to seriously think about working this diet into my daily life.

David’s coming home at 3, he’s gonna eat and then we’re going to go jogging. I really hate jogging, but he promised we’d only do ten sets of two minute jogging periods. I have cleaned out my entire closet, practiced voice, put away my clothes, and I have an hour to kill. Hmmm….

Baby Step. July 27, 2008

So the GHB may actually become a hit, and I am thoroughly excited. A woman who owns an earthly goods store is interested in my tote bags! I talked it over with my mother and she is willing to help me with the financial expenses. I feel really great and inspired. I finally have an opportunity to make a profit and donate to the honeybees!

Yesterday I cleaned my room. Wiped everything down, mopped the floor, and I am even in the process of washing my sheets, comforter, and clothes. I’ve got about 15 days until Cancun, and I want clean sheets by the time I return. I also went to Olive Garden with my family and David; we went to the one in Vernon Hills. Fancy! Then again, it is Vernon Hills. Even their dishes look better than the Olive Garden by my house. You know how you look in the picture and want your food to come out like that, but it usually doesn’t? Well, mine did yesterday! I was happy.

I think (I hope!) I am over all PMS. I really hate that time of the month. Not only do I gain 3 lbs, I’m a bitch to everyone, myself included.

Looks like it’s going to be a beautiful day!

Our Scent. July 27, 2008

I have noticed it for such a long, long time, but never really stopped to think about it. It catches my attention in little moments; when I wake up beside you in the morning, when you hold me tight in your arms, when we talk late into the night. It never fails to put a smile on my face.

It’s our fragrance.

No doubt, we each have our own smells. I love burying my nose into your cotton t-shirts – the fresh soap smell overpowers my emotions rather than my senses. And you tell me you love it when you catch a whiff of my perfume, the only one I’ll probably ever like, because it reminds me of doves and roses. These scents somehow meld when we’re together, when we’re embracing. I get thrown off guard and try to piece together what the scent could be. The blanket, your room, the pillows? No. It’s us. I’d do anything to bottle that fragrance. It would be an instant best-seller. Strong, yet sweet. A reminder of lazy days by your side, of swimming through soft sheets at night and the contentedness to simply float on pillows at the break of dawn. Doves and roses and clean t-shirts, love and my hair and your cologne…who knew it’d smell this wonderful?

I smell it on me now. It will be gone when I take a shower, but I’ll come back for it at night. Until then…

PMS Never Ends… July 25, 2008

WARNING: I am in a whiny mood.

I have nothing to complain about, though, so I’ll try not to complain.

So out of nowhere during dinner David gets a call from his man-buddies, saying, “remember we were gonna jam tonight?” Oops. Nope, he’d forgotten. I told him to go ahead, dropped him off and thought about going shopping, but sitting my whiny ass in front of the laptop sounded oh-so-much-more satisfactory.

After dinner we were planning to go see X-files (I love the X-files, I really do). And we rented and started watching 21. You know, any other day I’d be glad to have time to myself, but this past week I have not wanted to be alone at all. I feel like I need constant support, someone to talk to. I feel 5 lbs heavier (probably am) because of my period. I am bloated. I am bloated and want attention. I won’t lie. I am pissed and whiny and complaining and am ready to just break down. How flipping ridiculous is this?

Extracurriculars July 25, 2008

It’s time for me to do a victory dance, because GUESS WHAT!? My tutoring job will be continuing through the school year! This is great. Tutoring is not as demanding or time consuming as a part time job (one or two days a week), it pays relatively well, and I’ll even get to accomplish my school year goal: join ONE extracurricular activity. And I’m going for choir at CLC!

I’m so happy things are looking up. It looks like I’ll have a busy school year, but that’s what I need more than ever.

David is going to be gone for a week right after we get back from Cancun. When I first heard about it I was a little ticked, but now I don’t mind. It will give me a week to myself to really think before going back to school.

He Passed! July 24, 2008

Well, I’ve finally created a site that has satisfied my green needs; http://www.freewebs.com/greenveva. The blog will not be personal; it’s 100% environmental news.

Today is David’s celebratory CNA dinner. He just called me saying he got a B in the class (!!!) and he sounded really happy. I’m happy for him. We really can’t afford much, but we’re going to a buffet for dinner and spending the rest of today together.

More later.

Status Check July 23, 2008

So after I finished up that last post I tucked myself into bed, and not ten minutes later heard BUZZZZZZ from my cell phone.

David and I met up with his friend at TGIF. We had a fun time and I got what I wanted: a little social activity, but not too much. This morning I got the worst menstrual cramps known to man and there is still no blood. But I am in a much better mood.

Today’s my fathers official birthday and we’ll be celebrating with pad thai and cookie cake! Yummm. I went to my appointment this morning and got a prescription for a new BCP. All is well with the world…

…for now.

PMS-ing Part 2 July 22, 2008

Okay, I am a little crabby.

After a mud mask, apple-scented bath with scrubs and lotions, and a pretty darned cool purchase from Early2bed.com, I am still feeling BLAH. This is going to be one of those nights where I stay home feeling sorry for myself and partially enjoy it.

David is going out with his man-buddies tonight. They are beginning to write Christian music together, which is really great and I support him 100%. But…(insert whiny voice here)…why’d he have to go tonight???

I called him at work to try and persuade him to invite me to “jam” with him and his man-buddies. I know better than to plead, and I know that I should use this night to myself to reflect on my inner self and meditate and all that jazz. But let’s face it: I’ve spent the entire day being pissed, which means I am spending this evening depressed at how I’ve wasted my entire day (I didn’t say I was logical). I want a hug, a kiss, attention, company. I actually want to get dressed up really nice and go out to dinner, looking and laughing at the world. I don’t want to talk or interact with my family, and though I’m up for a little socialization it may make me a little sick to see a happy person. I feel cynical, sad, sarcastic, and guess what? There is not a spot of blood yet.

Nah, I really do want him to jam with his buds tonight. Doesn’t mean I can’t be a little sour, though.

PMS-ing July 22, 2008

I am doing some serious PMS-ing. I even have the peanut butter jar right next to me as I write this.

I had to downgrade my Green Honeybee website as it was costing WAYYYY too much per month, and heck, if I don’t have income, I can’t give out. So I went to an $8.95/month plan and figured out that I basically get the same stuff out of it. Cool, right? Except that EVERYTHING ON THE PAGEBUILDER PROGRAM IS GOING WRONG, I DON’T KNOW HOW TO WORK THIS S***, AND THERE ARE BEES BUTTS THAT NEED TO BE SAVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Phew. That felt good to get out.

Sometimes I get so darned frustrated.

I love my little brother, but today I just really couldn’t take him and thank goodness his buddy ended up calling. My boyfriend is staying an extra week of the summer in California; he’ll be back the day before school starts. I need to figure out a good restaurant to take him to for his congratulatory end of CNA class dinner. I am worried about college money and metra money, I want a job for the school year. And I want a melted cookie dough ice cream. I really don’t need to save the world, but it’d be nice if I could, y’know? My little bee buddies need to be saved!!!