Age Differences July 21, 2008

School draws ever closer, and I am thinking about it more and more. Sometimes it gets me a little depressed, other times I feel like I need to be more optimistic.

I love the concept of school. I really do. I love to learn, read, ask questions, etc. I’m a good student. My issue is not with the classes, it’s with who’s in the classes.

I have always been super different, and this summer I have learned to use this difference to my advantage. I can talk comfortably to people ten years older than me, but have the hardest time making conversation with my fellow teenager. I have tried to “fit in” with the conversations my age group has, but I find it rather difficult. I don’t want to indulge myself in shallow conversation, I don’t want to just pretend I’m a mindless drone that gets up in the morning and her sole purpose is to look pretty for the world. I have played those parts, and they are in no way satisfying to my intellectual abilities.

As I moved one step forward into college, with a little more determination and a little less self-consciousness, I hope that this year I can meet people who I really click with. My mother has told me, over and over, that I don’t hang out too much with my friends, and hang out too much with my boyfriend, and she’s worried because “college is a time where you’re supposed to have five hundred friends and not know their last names.” I am being completely honest when I say I have made no permanent friends in college. I’m not ashamed, just feeling a bit left out. Like the lone zebra in a pick of wild flamingo’s or something.

Raw Food Fun July 21, 2008

Last night David and I were lying down in bed all ready to sleep when his buddy called. I knew he really wanted to hang out with him and let him go. I thought I’d have a hard time falling asleep without him by my side (I usually do!) but within what felt like 5 minutes I heard a knock on the door. He was back!?

I had a full day yesterday. I took a 3.5 mile walk in the Rollins Savannah in sweltering heat (which made it feel like a 6.5 mile walk) with my family, went to a Raw Food seminar at a local yoga studio, and later swam in the pool with my brother and boyfriend.

The Raw Food seminar was pretty awesome. I was the youngest one there out of about 20 35-60 year old ladies. All ladies. I felt very comfortable and like I was with my age group. I was able to joke around, take notes, etc without feeling a bit self-conscious. The Mock Tuna Salad was DELICIOUS, as were the dehydrated crackers. I thought raw fooding was going to be all smoothies and salads, but this seminar really changed my outlook on healthy eating. The dishes were intriguing, colorful, and even a little spicy! By the end of the two and a half hours I felt very enlightened and inspired.